Beautiful dreamer Beautiful dreamer Moved out into the city; mid-twenties Left behind me all my troubles and all of my worries I was in no hurry, to pass the time Yet I did re-find myself in the constant spotlights Of all the clubs that I’d visit in River North Driving so fast down the lanes on Lakeshore But it wasn’t for a year that I’d see her standing there With a yellow patent purse and her beautiful hair It took me by surprise, I couldn’t think quick So just standing in an open elevator’s all I did The words wouldn’t come, so I sealed my two lips Had my stomach in knots, feeling twisted and sick I’d find out soon enough that I wasn’t enough To man up and stand beside her; I still bluffed My way through the dates of an entire nine months And no never did I ever blame her not even for once Beautiful dreamer Save yourself for another rainy day Beautiful dreamer What do you see? When you’re staring out the window, do you see me? A dreamer’s what I am, so dreaming’s what I can do I ran to, both her arms and stayed There for what seemed forever before things had started to sway I couldn’t let go of my past, so my present days Had started to suffer, from the problems and utter Selfishness that I projected with such hecticness I couldn’t see the blessings, so while I was so blessed but I couldn’t see the ways that I was starting to mess up So the story goes, so my life it flowed Down the hourglass still I held onto some type of hope That we’d keep our love, from somewhere far above A plan unfolds but you’re never ready for the shove Into the very present of all the wrongs that you did She couldn’t take more so farewell she bid me I permanently stayed so way past tipsy But I still didn’t stumble when life tried to trip me Beautiful dreamer Save yourself for another rainy day Beautiful dreamer What do you see? When you’re staring out the window, do you see me? Beautiful dreamer Beautiful dreamer

Back in ’89, my parents moved To the States in the hopes that they could boost My chance at a better life, but being so young Plus a single child, felt like the only one In the whole wide world, like nothing could stop me It’s like my action figures and Nintendo adopted me Things were so good, I felt like a prince Cause I’d always turn the music dial up since My dad had the words and my mom; the rhythm So storytelling’s always been in my system They were both artists of their very own We were all happy in our little home Then one day my dad had started to spit up Blood on the concrete, it made us all sit up We had so many questions but so few answers We finally found out he had come down with cancer Hope will never be a four letter word It’s the only thing we’ve got, when our sights blur And that’s the truth It’ll always be what gets us through cause Hope will never be a four letter word It’s the only thing we’ve got, when our sights blur And that’s the truth It’ll always be what gets us through So back to the story, we had gone to doctors My mom’s biggest fear was that I’d be living with fosters Since the news they got wasn’t what they were expecting My mom got sick too, this disease was infecting My whole family from the inside out Like staring at the ceiling and just needing to shout “Why is this happening, God?”
 But when we need that comfort He becomes that rod So we prayed and we prayed but my dad didn’t make it I’d still laugh at school just in order to fake it Though I was aching cause I saw all of the hurt My mom was going through plus what made it worse Is that I was only nine, what was she to do? In this brand new country with her English not fluid But the word she knew, she had learned to use it “Hope” is what she had and all the pain it diffused it Hope will never be a four letter word It’s the only thing we’ve got, when our sights blur And that’s the truth It’ll always be what gets us through cause Hope will never be a four letter word It’s the only thing we’ve got, when our sights blur And that’s the truth It’ll always be what gets us through

The first time I ever took a shot was in ‘04 “It’s only for a bit, not long term” is what I swore But I reached a point in my life where I thought I needed more So I flipped open my phone and called in for the quickest score Still think back, to the many nights that I’d look and see the neon signs from inside of my city flat So let’s do the math; system is attracted To everything that keeps my brain doing these constant backflips A hat trick; three decades of seeing that it’s Crazy, to live life so amazingly lazy like Lost in a maze while your mind is so hazy, might Be better to be grounded and stop being so spacey, right? Just when I couldn’t take anymore chemicals I fell back onto my bed and got a little bit skeptical Like, “do I really need these lights to see?” Technically not, cause I am naturally So trippy, so trippy, so trippy A promise made, a promise kept I quit all of that stuff that prepped me for an early death Cause I had reached a depth, deep inside my mind Like a veil was lifted, I’m no longer living blind But now adapted to being clean, the distractions Of a former life are now officially retracted I see indeed, that I am free Never quiet about it or live silently “Abide in Me, and I in you” It spelled it out clear and made it a perfect truth To get me on the right track, found again the right path Now it’s all so simple, cause I feel like I am right back in it Just when I couldn’t take anymore chemicals I fell back onto my bed and got a little bit skeptical Like, “do I really need these lights to see?” Technically not, cause I am naturally So trippy, so trippy, so trippy

While we’re out here trying to do something so different These people act, like we’re actually so ignorant Like we don’t know what we’re doing, just following trends But they’re really adversaries dressed up just like our friends May it be rapper, musician, or whatever the hustle They sit and scheme their next move like it’s a piece of the puzzle Aiming their shots, when we try to progress Cause they hate seeing others, having any success It’s such a shame to see Such hypocrisy It’s such a shame to see Such jealousy Let’s look at the truth; when you’re down, they’re proud Of themselves cause they feel like they stand out in the crowd But when you’re up they truly despise it Cause they’re so devious and so conniving They talk behind our backs like it’s a game That they need to win, to glorify their name Then when they’re caught they cast off the blame Like I said, it’s a crying shame Cause when they were down we came up to their sides Helping them survive and getting them to strive like; “Good job man, you’re improving yourself,” But when it’s their turn they become someone else I sit and wonder why these people act the way they do Maybe it’s just the fact that they hate me and you But I think it’s much deeper, like a self-hatred’s at play I’m just glad I’m not like them at the end of the day It’s such a shame to see Such hypocrisy It’s such a shame to see Such jealousy So with all of that in mind, check your own life For the wolves in sheep’s clothing taking up your time Like they want your attention but they show you none And talk about your failures like it’s all in good fun But what it really is, is envy in disguise They don’t want to see you fly, they don’t want to see you rise Up to a new level with your happiness in mind Cause they want to see you fail, time after time I’m saying all of this as a warning to those Who want to thrive in life and perpetually grow You probably have foes that you don’t even know about Waiting in the shadows, of this I’ve got little doubt But stay in the game, stay in your lane Continue onward with this lifetime race Cause you’re truly blessed, and they know that it’s true They’d give anything for a day, of being you It’s such a shame to see Such hypocrisy It’s such a shame to see Such jealousy

Everything is good, everything is so fine Cause I’m straight shape shifting as I’m floating through time While you’re busy having some sex on some ecstasy I am Writing out my life and my legacy No speck to see cause you’ve got logs in your eyes From such pure jealousy since I am flying so high it’s My mind’s wit, and it’s all I’ll ever need Cause it’s between these lines that one will have to read At a faster speed, never plastered indeed I’m using what I heard that Osteen pastor speak And carving out my place right among the stars I dare you take my hand and I will show you how far it’s gotten Something like a darkness or rotten Apple in the garden of all that can blossom I’m turning down Eve as I’m stepping on snake heads Never listening to him or ever hearing his fake threats Okay, let’s see, now I’m back in it They say those in the know are the ones who are with it So let’s flip it, the script and how it dripped with Such narcissism that it tripped me up for years I’m calling all my peers and throwing it in gear It’s so clear, I have reached, a new sphere of being Now it’s like I’m seeing for the first time ever It doesn’t come easy for some being so clever But whatever, I’m just me and I’m just doing me It’s a feeling so freeing I can’t ignore it, see? All of these audio landscapes, I explore Cause with this kind of flow my confidence is restored I’m imploring you; in this game I’m outscoring you But I don’t live with my mind set on starting wars or flooring you So in terms of energy; I keep it positive Cause I’ve learned to hold my bad vibes just like hostages

Everyone around me seems so hateful Evil still exists inside of angels Never knew that life would be so painful Don't know who to trust, I'm in danger It’s wolves dressed up in all different sorts of sheepskin Like their words are so thick with grit, and their deeds; thin Turn your back to them and they start their feeding When they get caught is when they start their pleading It gets dim so quick, seems that this sickness Grows by the yardstick and never by some inches People can be so corrupt, just like their hearts are Utterly dark; this greed seems like an art-form Everyone around me seems so hateful Evil still exists inside of angels Never knew that life would be so painful Don't know who to trust, I'm in danger You know the type, maybe some are in your own life They take advantage when you’re lost and barely alive They arm themselves, with their lies and such deceit I’m not speaking hypotheticals; it happened to me And please believe that I cut them off quick Like their heads are still spinning from the constant prick Of the shards and thick, glass shattered by the brick Of truth itself, never falling for their tricks again Everyone around me seems so hateful Evil still exists inside of angels Never knew that life would be so painful Don't know who to trust, I'm in danger

The tale begins in a quaint Texas town With a gorgeous riverwalk found all around That I visited once, but couldn’t enjoy Cause you were all I thought about, it annoyed me Knowing I was so head over heels for you Cut to many months later; and we are walking through A Florida landscape with the sand beneath us But now the third place we go see exceeds lust Girl, you could’ve been married in Paris But you took too many days off; no ferris Wheels in our future, mended the past with sutures Rumor has it you’re crying now with no sense of humor You should’ve laughed sooner, I should’ve left too Instead of wasting all of that good time on you So I added it all up and minus’ed you Cause the sum of all fears is a timeless truth We could’ve gone down the many streets That are lined with trees and where lovers meet Had escapades through the risk and danger Lived a life so full cause it’s what it’s in my nature But you just couldn’t wait Now you’re stuck alone with the decisions you made And the life you have isn’t really what you wanted None of it was real, all that happiness you flaunted Girl, you could’ve been married in Paris But you took too many days off; no ferris Wheels in our future, mended the past with sutures Rumor has it you’re crying now with no sense of humor You should’ve laughed sooner, I should’ve left too Instead of wasting all of that good time on you So I added it all up and minus’ed you Cause the sum of all fears is a timeless truth Regret is such a deep, dark emotion And all I can really say about it Is that I’m so glad I’m not you right now And that’s the truth Girl, you could’ve been married in Paris But you took too many days off; no ferris Wheels in our future, mended the past with sutures Rumor has it you’re crying now with no sense of humor You should’ve laughed sooner, I should’ve left too Instead of wasting all of that good time on you So I added it all up and minus’ed you Cause the sum of all fears is a timeless truth

I can already hear it All the criticism that is already searing with A heated hatred, for my stage and how I play this Game, but that’s just the way, that I was raised If they could only see it, what is coming up next Not dumbing down these subjects through my pencils and text I’m just expressing myself in the way I know best Through a steady beat and a metaphor written on my chest Like my heart’s exposed, for all of those People to see, but it’s the path that I chose And they scrutinize me at their pleasure’s will But I am flying so high with my feathers and quill Still, it‘s like an uphill battle When it’s everybody’s nerves that I ultimately rattle And they say it’s a persona and that I’m a fake But take it from me, this is make or break